Glass

Glass

Shards of glass

under my skin

So much pain

don’t touch me

I’m on fire

hurts so deep

Bleeding in a million places

No one knows

No one sees

My bleeding soul

Trails of tears

Oh God

You know

You know

Only You know

My heartache

My brokenness

Trying to hold myself

together

So I don’t spill out

Keening, wailing inside

Mourning sweet love

Wanting to see you

Touch you

Yet afraid

Cut off, isolated

with my pain

So much together

So much shared

Now deleted and thrown away

Hide

 deep down

where the pain is

Unstoppable…coming

My hands go up

to hold back

the crashing force

that’s coming

when I see you

maybe

maybe

For the last time

In a long while

Can’t defend

Against this tide

that comes and

swells

and thrashes me

Oh God

You know

You know

Only You know

Am I a fool?

Should this not have happened?

To love that deep

And intensely

and forbidden

Cost me so much

Shards of glass under my skin

So

so much pain

So much

Don’t touch me